1-18-20

This past week has really been a challenge for me. Most of the things going on was brought on by myself like usual though. I let myself become consumed with worry, anger, and a whole slew of things that I thought had been dealt with and were behind me. Yesterday I was at work and I was stewing on some situations going on. Then out of the blue, this beautiful friend of mine text me, “How are you doing today?? You were on my mind a lot yesterday. I love you friend.” (Let me stop right here and say that I hope that each one of you are blessed with friends who reach out to you when you are on their heart and pray for you even without knowing why they are thinking of you. I cherish these friendships!) I told her what was going on and told her that I had been reading the Psalms to find some peace. We text back and forth for a bit. After our conversation, I really had a bit of peace in my heart, but was still holding on to the things that have been overcoming me. Then, I left work to go to Luke’s game in Greenville. I ran into my dad at the store and he decided to go with me. I was so happy because it was a dreary old day and I really didn’t want to drive down by myself sulking in my thoughts. The trip over was great. We had a few laughs on the way and I really enjoyed getting to hang out with him, just ourselves. I was still thinking about all that was going on though. We got to Greenville and it was raining. There were no parking spots close to the gym, so we had to park a ways out. Dad gets out of the car and starts walking and I run up to catch him. I have my head down to keep my face from the rain and all I can see is his feet. At that moment, the most beautiful though came over me, “if I keep my eyes on my Father’s footsteps, He will lead me there.” There I was, watching my Dad’s giant size 16’s avoiding the puddles, and God gives me a beautiful lesson. I don’t have to know what is going to happen, I don’t have to worry about the unknown, I am His and if I walk in His ways, He will lead me to where I need to go. Oh, how wonderful is that thought? Deuteronomy 11:26-28 reads, “See, I am setting before you today a blessing and a curse; the blessing, if you listen to the commandments of the Lord your God, which I am commanding you today; and the curse, if you do not listen to the commandments of the Lord your God, but turn aside from the way which I am commanding you today, by following other gods which you have not known.” I had not listened to the commands written in the Bible about all the things I was stewing over, (examples: about worry, see Matthew 6:25-34; about anger, see Psalm 37:8-9 & Proverbs 29:11), I had let these things rule over me like a god and the product of that was all consuming, a curse. I pray that I hold tight to this beautiful lesson and continue to release the things that are unpleasing to my Father. God bless you all!